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furiousgoldfish:

things abuse survivors think/say

• maybe my trauma wasn’t bad enough
  
• maybe what happened was just my fault??
  
• but what if I can’t hold that person accountable? what if they meant well
  
• what if I don’t have the right to be angry?
• but what if they didn’t know they were hurting me? maybe its my fault for not saying it
  
• it’s my fault, i’ve always been hiding how badly things hurt me
  
• i’m just weak and pathetic and everything hurts me it’s not their fault i’m like this
  
• hey this this thing actually happen or did i make that up
  
• if i ask abuser they’ll tell me i made it up that must be true they do say i’m delusional
  
• maybe if I’ve done something differently this wouldn’t have happened
  
• guilt guilt guilt guilt
  
• what if abuser is right tho? what if they’re telling the truth and it’s okay to tell it in insults then?
  
• i’m garbage, i knew it
  
• yeah everyone deserves compassion and comfort but me? no.
  
• I am the sole person who is just bad enough to deserve everything that has happened to me
  
• no this person didn’t mean to hurt my feelings i’m just too sensitive!!!
  
• maybe someone else wouldn’t be hurt by this, this means its my fault
  
• i hate myself
  
• how long until everyone realizes i’m just a fake and there’s nothing valuable inside of me
  
• yeah they like me now but i’m going to fuck it up and they’ll hate me like everyone else
  
• was that abuse? no it can’t be. its my fault. if I wasn’t the way I am it wouldn’t have happened
  
• everything people do to me is just what I deserved
  
• what this person is doing bothers me so I have to try harder not to be bothered by it
  
• this person is wrong but everyone believes them so it must be okay
  
• yeah they hate me but i don’t want them to leave me maybe i can get them to hate me less
  
• yeah this person is hurting me but i still need them in my life maybe if i change myself
  
• it doesn’t matter if they hurt me, i’m used to it
  
• what if everyone abandons me and I die alone
  
• this person scares me but I can’t let that affect me
  
• I shouldn’t be feeling this way, I need to get over my feelings
  
• I can’t let anyone notice how I feel or they will hate me
  
• how does everyone just stay calm? why can’t I do that
  
• I’m a burden on everyone, I bet they’d all be happier if I wasn’t there
  
• if I disappeared right now wouldn’t everything be better?

*these are not truths, this is after-effect of long term abuse

(via indigenouswomenrising)

moonwatcher13:

ziraseal:

witchella:

historyfilia:

we think Greeks were a very rational people and all until we learn about the Buphonia, an Athenian ritual where a laboring ox had to be sacrificed but at the same time, this was considered a terrible crime. so when the priest killed it with an axe, he had to throw it aside and get the fuck out of there running for his life. then the rest of the people discovered the crime scene and blamed the axe, the only one present. the axe was immediately carried before the court of the Prytaneum which charged the axe with having caused the death of the ox. sometimes it was absolved, others, it was thrown into the sea,

You cannot tell me they didn’t do all of this with a sense of humor.

Athena, goddess of wisdom, watching her dumbass patron city do this shit: 

(via fulmarflight)

englishmajorinrepair:

Some Asshole: You can’t be! Truly yourself! If you’re on medication! It’s changing the Real You™!

Me: if the real me is going to lie on the floor for 3 weeks and try to drown herself in the river I don’t want to know her, Barbara

(via worldohworld)

chickentiddies:

stimman3000:

two of these hands are from the same body and if that isn’t the biggest mood

(via fulmarflight)

bpd-anz:

someone: my mom/dad supported me through some traumas that happened

me: parents do that?

(via fulmarflight)